Full-Blown Agony: My Battle Against the Puzzling Suffering of Cluster Headaches
It began on a gloomy Monday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, attempting to manage a new class, when a sharp pain bloomed behind my one eye. It was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with greater force. Four times that day I left a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cold water. I tried ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.
The headaches returned repeatedly that fall, and again in spring, soon establishing an yearly pattern. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could anticipate the routine: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-on pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches often start with severe pain behind a single eye that persists up to several hours.
About one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks typically begin with abrupt, severe pain around one eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for as long as three hours. Episodes occur in cycles, daily or several times a day, and are associated with red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have continuous attacks, defined by the absence of extended pain-free periods.
What unites sufferers is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number dropped to four percent when they were pain-free.
One patient, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her teens, similar to many triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls barely being able to see on the bus home.
Her family often interpreted her attacks as intoxicated episodes. Support eventually came from her parent and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found clerical work after moving, but often hid her illness. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during attacks. Her definitive identification came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.
Nevertheless, the failure to plan daily activities around unpredictable pain took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a colleague, and even having to be cared for by her children during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been described across the ages. “The first account of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They linked the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads.
Historical medical records suggest bizarre remedies for what some experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with therapies including herbal concoctions to other, more superstitious cures.
It was a European physician who provided the initial comprehensive account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only formally classified by international medical societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key blood vessel that supplies blood to the head. Leading experts in diagnosing the condition note this.
In 1998, scientists released the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The data, published in a major medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.
In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. One man's attacks started in 1986 and felt like “a modelling balloon being blown up behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he underwent multiple surgeries before finally being diagnosed in recently, after a doctor researched his symptoms.
Specialists say delays in diagnosing and managing occur because patients are rarely seen mid-attack. “You're tired and low, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by ruling out other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which part of the head do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Specific features such as redness, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help confirm the diagnosis. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for most of her life, although she has been free from an episode since 2016. When she was in her 20s, she had her molars extracted because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in 2021; a calm advisor talked me through oxygen therapy and medication until the episode passed.
Official guidance on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen therapy and/or a specific drug administered by nasal spray. No tablets or opioids should be used. Preventive choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the attacks of some people.
But leading neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Brief bouts with occasional attacks are handled with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an procedure into the side of the head where the pain is that decreases nerve signals.
The official guidelines need updating to reflect a